Insanity on the way.....

Now a days when I type http://360.yahoo.com what do I get?

Access Denied (content_filter_denied)

Access denied to "360.yahoo.com" according to:
- Code of Business and Ethics and Conduct and
- Monitoring the usage of systems and services

This page is categorized as: "Adult/Mature Content;Social Networking"

If you wish to question or dispute this result, click here

“Adult Content?”- huh???? so, 360.com is equivalent to porn sites? Didnt know that!

…But I didn’t wish to question or dispute “that” result and I didn’t click “there”…

So, living with all such disputes, I am still logging onto y360… for how long, is the question. I don’t have internet at home, because after spending 10 hrs in front of computer my conscience didn’t want to spend another 6 hrs again in front of it. Some how, I am popping thru a dummy URL, now.

I think soon that too will be categorized as “Adult URL?”

Anyway, life is buzzing around me that mostly I have no idea about days and nights. Sun sets here at 3:30pm, now. And my poor Indian logic hasn’t grasped Daylight Saving Time concept yet! I look at sky, it is dark and I think “oh, it’s already night”. Then I look at my watch only to find that it is only 4:30 pm! It is baffling. You have to be born and brought up in sunny India to understand that contradiction! However hard I try to find logic in it, I CANT accept that.

Another winter problem is that mostly I lose sensation in my face. I can protect every other part of my body in layers and layers of winter clothes. But hello, what about face? Especially my nose. As it is the first thing protruding in my face, it receives all the cold wind first! And most of the time it turns blue and starts bleeding and I don’t even “feel” it!

Another thing I can’t bear now is the stormy nights! At night, all I can hear is the wind howling thru the double-glazed windows. It very much scares me. If we are in a car, then I can feel, the car swaying in wind.

How many times I say “ I hate winter” , I don’t know.. but when my friends say “ the worse is coming up in January”, I dread winter more…

The one good thing happened this winter is I FINALLY learned swimming. I had to have one-to-one sessions with my instructor, along with comments from him like “don’t do ballet dancing in water, Swathi”, (which I didn’t appreciate much, as he doesn't know that my "whatever" dancing skills are well below level zero!) . Still it was worthwhile. I don’t know if ‘swim’ is the right word for what I do in water, because it more or less looks like “dog-paddling”. [Again, he told me that!] Still, on a positive note, I can move forward in water. And that itself makes me feel good! However hard he tries to say that I am not swimming properly, I know I am moving forward! He cant break my spirit, and it definitely has got nothing to do with his looks!

Work? I better not mention about it, because one day I even lost my way to my seat. I walked around for a while, before I could figure out where I was sitting for the past 2 yrs!

….and yesterday I told my manager that I think I am losing my mind. And he looked at me for a second, paused, smiled and said “I think, so too…”

How about that?

Still... no complaints....

"tujhse naaraz nahin zindagi
hairaan hoon mein..."